I have been noticing so many beautiful people lately. For a while there I was wondering to myself where everyone had gone, but am realizing that I just needed to open my eyes and see the light. That’s the thing about attitude, it colors everything. If I am in a bad mood, sure I can paint like no tomorrow, but can I communicate with the world around me and notice it for what it’s worth- I don’t think so! I’m going out on a limb here starting a blog with no real subject or direction, but I really want this to come from my heart. So here goes folks, it’s all yours.
I’ve been reading this book that is both thought provoking and has depth and at the same time is mindless entertainment. The best of both worlds I figure and so far, has presented some interesting ideas.
First, why seek happiness? Of all things, working towards or dreaming of being “happy”, can be just a trap into dissatisfaction. We think we want this thing and that because that is how society has laid it out to us but in reality, as unique human beings we all deserve and align with different lifestyles, different outcomes and totally different selves. So when someone asks me if I’m happy and I’m being honest, I say no...not all the time. But I am joyous. My joy has beginnings and ends and it comes and goes. I feel it down to my core and then it passes. I’m learning to live in the moment, take it one day at a time, and not to focus on this so called “happiness” that I have looked for all my life. Just joy… Pure JOY.
I find joy in giving. Not of my possessions, but of myself. If you need help babysitting your kids or painting your house, if you really need a listening ear, call me up. Some days, all I need is a friend who is willing to receive and I’m golden. It gives me strength. “The trees give that they may live, for to withhold is to perish.” Maybe that's why I am made for my line of work.
A friend asked me tonight if I was in a “sensitive” space right now. I guess I am. I am learning the most important lesson of my life and I know it. I am seeing more and more beauty in simplicity. I am listening in different ways and noticing all kinds of beautiful people. I am a sponge. Learning and growing every day and in so many ways, my mind is a bit blurred with all of it. And maybe more importantly, I am noticing my own separation from it. The world happens all around me and all I have is me. So, I must get back to my paintbrushes because they can keep me company. Maybe you will find me here, joyous and full of attitude.
